Loneliness

There was a meeting with all the single staff a few years when I worked at a church in Colorado. One of the girls and I talked about loneliness while living overseas. I remember talking with her about how it’s a totally different kind of loneliness. It’s not about not being around people....it’s not about not being in a relationship. It’s a totally different kind of loneliness that is deeper. It happened when I lived here last time. And I remember telling this friend that I never wished that kind of loneliness on people. I was thankful for it but didn’t want it again...BUT yet again I am here. Facing this same loneliness. I wondered if I would deal with it again while I was here and sure enough it has hit. There isn’t a good easy fix. It is literally something you just have to work through. So at this moment I sit with it. I must face it and try facing it without being a total grouch or angry person. I think to Psalm 73:23-26:

“Yet I still belong to you;

You hold my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, leading me to a glorious destiny. Whom have I in heaven but you? I desire you more than anything on earth. My heart may fail, and my spirit may grow weak, but God remains the strength of my heart; he is mine forever.”