OMG! I'm so done with grad school. It probably has to do with it being my last semester. But I literally feel like I'm going crazy. There is a list of things I'd rather be doing! But until I get this finished I have to put that all on the back burner. So many times I get caught up in the idea of everything looming and the to-dos. I get stuck! So stuck I can't move at times. But my mind isn't stuck..it races on! I'm currently in my last practicum. Why I saved the biggest one for last is beyond my understanding. Practicum means I go into school settings and practice being an Early Childhood Special Educator (ECSE). It sounds easier than it is. Not being in the school makes it super challenging to accomplish activities. I don't have relationships with students or teachers. Then the one day a week I'm there I have a HUGE list of things to accomplish! After that one day of completing stuff it spurs on more stuff to accomplish (vicious cycle). But I'm not there the next day so then I go home create or copy documents and then need to get them to staff/family members during the week when I'm not there and hope that they are completed by the time I'm there that week. If not it delays the process! I know the month of March is going to be even crazier. I have my comprehensive exams to accomplish as well! Those are 4 projects (papers 4-5 pages long single spaced) due within like three weeks. While I know I kind of need to check out socially for a month it makes it really hard! I'm not great at doing that whole balance thing! In the end the thing I need the most is prayer. So if you think about it please pray that I have patience, sanity, less anxiety, time management, and focus over the next few weeks and months. I have "Brokenness Aside" by all Sons and Daughters playing in the background right now and it ends with "you make it beautiful." I know that God is going to make this beautiful I'm just wading through the mess right now. Love you all!
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