Cool Breezes

As so the packing begins! I know that I don't get back to Colorado until the end of June BUT if you saw my schedule for the next two months you'd understand. Plus I am breaking down an entire apartment.  This is so against my nature. I love decorating and filling a house. Making it comfortable and welcoming. So to be selling furniture and moving things out and packing things up is just a weird adjustment. Moving here seems like it was a million years ago. I have changed and grown up so much since I've been here! Since I am heading back to Afghanistan for a short trip I was trying to do some reading and I've been so surprised at how the reading about Afghanistan helps me with culture here. I wish that I had read more at the beginning of my stay here. Not that things were bad but I think it would have helped me to see the culture here differently. I was reading in one of the books about women but this chapter happened to be about Family, marriage, Sex, singles, husbands, and children. One of the parts from the singles section was titled "Welcome to the desert of Loneliness." Sure this title says a lot by it's self but here is the few sentences that caught my attention...."Jesus hiked into a desert for forty days at the beginning of his ministry. Paul camped in the backside of Arabia for three years at the beginning of his. They went away to be alone with God. They sought emptiness in order to be filled." This was awesome to read. I had a conversation about this same thing before I left Colorado but it didn't sink in on a deeper level until now.  When I was leaving Colorado I was talking to a friend and told her about how I've been alone and when I go all I've got is God. She looked at me and said "And that's okay?" and I told her it was. It was a new feeling for me. And during this time away I've definitely felt lonely and craved company of people just knowing me BUT I've always been comforted by God. It has really taught me to trust and lean into God in a whole new way.

I'm excited for God has to show me next. Where he wants to lead me. And who he'll bring into my life.  I'm for sure going to miss Poland! I mean even the girls at the shop by my house this week were super sad when I told them I was moving back. They get to see me maybe once a week. :) I am leaving a part of my heart here with these teachers and relationships that I've built. I have no idea how much we'll get to keep in touch and how often I'll be able to come and visit.  I've been so impressed with how the people and families have opened up their homes and hearts to me.  They do such a better job of this than any America  here or in the states! I have learned so much from each of them.  Okay...I'm not leaving yet. I will save some of this for later.  ;)